I am changing

life is changing.
my mind is clouded right now.
though I have some clear visions.
I'm being very fast decision.
I hope this works out, and I'm right.
I want to make something of myself.
am I being influenced?
is this me?
I sure hope so.
i hope. i hope. i hope.

i love you megan, i really do

i love you too.





hey, you...why did you start this up again? yes, you...then one that makes me question everyone i'm with

so...

it's happened for me
and yes, it's scary..and yes, I'm crazier than i thought i'd be..and much more determined.

I'm reading it for the fourth time...

"Chaos is more freedom; in fact, total freedom. But no meaning. I want to be free to act, and I also want my actions to mean something."

""Love the world and yourself in it, move through it as though it offers no resistance, as though the world is your natural element.""


"Time is priceless, but it’s Free. You can't own it, you can use it. You can spend it. But you can't keep it. Once you've lost it you can never get it back."

""We laugh and laugh, and nothing can ever be sad, no one can be lost, or dead, or far away:right now we are here, and nothing can mar our perfection, or steal the joy of this perfect moment.""

"He made the boxes because he was lonely. He didn’t have anyone to love, and he made the boxes so he could love them, and so people would know that he existed, and because birds are free and the boxes are hiding places for the birds so they will feel safe, and he wanted to be free and be safe. The boxes are for him so he can be a bird."

"we both smile and we are conspirators."


"I wait for him.
Each moment that I wait
feels like a year,
an eternity.
Each moment is as slow
and transparent as glass.
Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting.
Why has he gone where I cannot follow?"


never gets old...

so...

it's time for me to get my act together....and in mid sentence I even started to question that..

oh, and this.

If you chase two rabbits, you will not catch either one. ~Russian Proverb

makes me think.

"No matter where you go or what you do, you live your entire life within the confines of your head." ~Terry Josephson

splat.;)

"My life in New York works, Jake. But then I come down here... and this fits too."
also kind of the story of my life currently...except add on and take out a few words here and there.

I believe you, I hate it.

"well i'm about the stupid game. because you know how i know it's me? i sit around and think about you all of the time. i can't get you out of my head. no matter what i am doing during the day, i think about what you are doing. when i wake up, i wonder if you are up yet. it's something i can't control, and it's taken me completely by surprise. call me creepy, call me whatever. but that's the honest truth."


kind of all I ever wanted to hear. why does it have to happen this way?

so little time.

"It seems like the simplest concept. Just push everyone away, and you'll never get hurt. However, the simplest isn't always the most effective. Someday, someone is going to find their way in And the're going to leave you on your knees."




story of my life currently.

scary

is beginning to really like somene, what sucks? knowing it can't last long.

I believe....

I may be going a bit crazy.
and I'm sort of questioning a lot.

so...

.
yes